in a relationship

So tonight was Lifegroup at the precious Maddox house. I have absolutely loved having this on my Sunday nights over break. It's like a sweet little way to get my week started every Sunday night.. love it. Well, Matt came tonight and our lesson or discussion for tonight, was that we had to go around and say one thing we can be praying for to improve or resolve our relationship with God. I was amazed as everyone went around the circle that I could seriously apply every single thing to my life. Things like

-spending more time in the word

-spending more time in prayer

-being intentional with our relationships

-seeing people through God's eyes

-being a light to others

-putting God first

-having patience

-knowing that God is in control

...seriously. I need help with every single one of those! Before it was my turn to talk I honestly wasn't sure what I was going to say because I could think of SO many things I could to do to improve my relationship with the Lord. And that just bothers me so much. I am SUCH a perfectionist in a lot of aspects of my life. Seriously, ask my roommates. When it comes to school work, everything has to be in apple-pie order. but when it comes to my relationship with God- the MOST IMPORTANT part of my life, I'm not so serious. And that's pretty not okay. I'm supposed to have a relationship with him- and I think sometimes I view it as something much more distant than that. But being in a relationship requires work on both parts.. and trust me, God's sure doing his part. I'm just not always doing mine.

So this semester I am focusing on renewing and rebuilding that oh-so important relationship. Don't freak out, mom. School isn't taking a back-seat. I'm just going to do a LOT better job of being a part of my relationship with the Lord.

....one week until I'm back in Abilene and back to work!